Continuing my theme of number posts here is a little thought about 23 which comes to me while I stay in a Russian village. Keeping the same structure as described in the previous post with 23, 3 is the inner number and 2 is the outer number. We can say that, in 23, 3 is meeting 2 in the wider world.
One of my main associations with 3 is flow. One way to interpret 2 is as “the other” (one includes everything but with two there is a separating within the one and the “other” appears). So putting these ideas together we can say that with 23 the flow from within is meeting “the other”. Seen like this a greeting can be understood as a 23 activity - from within me something flows out to the other that I meet in the world.
The Russian challenge
So why do I mention Russian greetings specifically? Well if you have ever visited Russia you will probably have noticed that out on the streets Russia is not a particularly friendly place. Behind closed doors with friends it is a different story, Russians are generous and big hearted. But out in public the atmosphere is usually somewhere between impassivity and suspicion. The time when I held open a Moscow shop door for a policeman comes to my mind. It was such an unusual event for him that he was immediately suspicious and demanded that I show him some ID. In Russia challenges can arise in any moment and no-one wants to expose themselves to difficulties unnecessarily. Responding to a stranger's "hello" falls into this category I think.
Reacting to rejection
Nevertheless my wish remains to acknowledge people and so when I am in the village in which my wife grew up I still make the effort to greet those I meet along her road. I think I am either ignored or receive the silent stare pretty much 95% of the time. This response is always difficult because in feeling rejected my tendency is to experience within myself a defensive reaction of rejection towards the person I have just greeted.
This is a natural human tendency I am sure and certainly one I have experienced many many times throughout my life. I do remember though one time when, in the face of rejection, I found myself rising above my normal pattern and continuing to remain open-hearted and loving. Love flowing out even while the other rejected me. In fact I wrote about it in a previous post – a post entitled Rose Pink. A colour that for many, many years existed in only one Equilibrium combination – B23!
Number and Colour meet
At that time I associated this higher consciousness with Rose Pink. The pink with extra pink that supports love to keep flowing even in the face of rejection. But today I find myself led to the very same theme through the consideration of number rather than colour. Amazing that the number relationship between 3 and 2 is entirely consistent with my experience of the gift of the Rose Pink / Pink colour combination.
King of Wands
By the way B23 as the King of Wands in the Tarot provides yet another confirmation of the gift of this bottle. The King of Wands represents the highest expression of fire energy and shines in Tiphareth, the sun sphere of the Tree of Life. The sun emits light and warmth in a constant outpouring irrespective of the attitude of those receiving it, just as 23 offers the same dynamic in number relationship, and equally just as Rose Pink has the extra love energy to keep giving love. Here is the image of the King of Wands in the Osho Zen tarot, it expresses particularly well the solar dynamic of this energy.
P.S. - my special formula
Faced with this dilemna of wanting to greet people but finding rejection difficult to handle i have been using a particular phrase to allow me to greet people more warmly. I say it in english and that is surely because i would not want it to be understood by those in the village that i greet. I say "I forgive you". Writing it here has made me feel embarrassed. At one point i deleted this last paragraph so ashamed was I - but then i realised something very exciting and so I share it just as it is. What i realised is that "forgive" which is a word i associate with Lady Portia - the pale yellow / pale pink is perhaps instrumental in achieving the positive flow of B23. Why? Because B59 is the light heart of B22 - the Yellow / Pink that precedes B23. Integrating forgiveness is perhaps the key that allows to step up to share the love and light of B23. The name of this bottle that signifies more to me in this moment than it ever did before.
Using this phrase "I forgive you" has enabled me to address people directly. It has been a preemptive statement, a self-fulfilling prophecy that allows me to remain, like the sun, open and out-flowing, independent of their reaction to me. 23 in action. But the phrase also creates a relationship that is not equal or perhaps respectful - keeping power on my side. The awareness i come to today though is that the forgiveness surely relates to me as much as any i meet. If i invite forgiveness for myself in this situation i let go of the fear that underlies my defensiveness and so, by another route, i have arrived at the same point, open to express from the flow within me to the world. 23 🙂